Okay so for a few months now I’ve been trying to think of the name of a book I read in high school and I absolutely cannot remember it. It’s written like it’s a journal (and it very well could be an actual journal? unsure.) The only parts I can remember is when the main character starts off like a normal person but gets in with a crowd that’s into cult behavior and I have a really strong memory of them going to a house to do some ritual and they kill a cow and drink the blood. They do some chants and take some drugs. He may or may not also eat an eyeball but that could just be my sick mind making it up.
Does ANYONE out there have an idea of what I’m talking about??!?!?!! Am I insane? IS THIS A DREAM?